event as an artist at Nerd Fest Comic Con in Nottingham, UK on Saturday 5 October.
I've been going to Memorabilia at the NEC in Birmingham since the 90s, back when I was an awkward teenager. I've always been in awe of any artist brave enough to have a table. If you'd told me then that I would one day have a table at an event like that, I wouldn't have believed you. Seriously.
But this year I've been telling myself - if an opportunity arises that you would ordinarily say 'no' to without even thinking about it properly, just take a moment to weigh it up and ask yourself: what do you have to lose vs. what do you have to gain
As it turns out there was a LOT
to gain. Not only did I meet a number of artists whose work I greatly admire but I met loads of other
awesome people too! And not just artists. Everyone who came by my table was just so darned friendly. Yes, even the drunk guy in the tweed jacket who passed by at about 11am, swishing his half-drunk pint of beer across my prints
It was an incredible day. And I saw a lot of kids who reminded me of the me from the 90s - the one I mentioned earlier. You can see the fear in their eyes. And they're looking at my work and I just know they're thinking "I'll never be this good..." And I just wanted to say "But you can be! You just need to be determined, and be prepared to dedicate some time to it." I think I actually said to one guy "If I can do it, you can do it!"
It was a total cheeseball moment, like I was some sort of over-enthusiastic motivational speaker. The guy looked about 25 and he kind of gave me a strange look but for that brief
moment, I felt like Yoda and he was Luke. I've always wanted to pass on the knowledge that I couldn't find when I first started taking drawing seriously. Yesterday was like a spring board to be able to do that. I had my speedpainting videos playing on a loop on my laptop and there were young kids watching them, not really understanding what they were watching, but kind of mesmirised and then dad would lean down and say "This is how you paint this kind of thing" and their eyes sparkle with inspiration. That's what made it so worthwhile and so rewarding.
That's not to say it wasn't stressful, because it was. Majorly so for me. I don't have much confidence in what I do artistically. I've always been that way and probably always will be. I know, I know - you're looking at my gallery and thinking "Are you serious
?" And the answer to that would be a resounding yes
! But after yesterday... I don't know... it's spawned this renewed confidence in what I do that's been dormant for far too long and from the lengthy conversations I had with some people, I need to stop being a self-critical, unconfident, lazybones and just get off my a$$ and do some more drawing!
So really, this is just a big thank you
to everyone who came by for a chat, or bought a print or postcard. Heck, even if you just grabbed a business card and ran away like Gollum reclaiming the one ring - collectively, you all made my day. Thank you.
And if you did say hi and you're a member here on dA, let me know so I can come by your page!!